I Dunno...

I feel compelled to write something, but I am not sure what to write exactly. I guess I'll just write down how I've been feeling lately.

Currently, I'm sickened by the world and most of the people in it. However, I am optimistic that things will be changing for the better for me very soon. All's well that ends well, right?

I will NEVER let my guard down again where a man is concerned and allow my heart to be broken ever again. This last time was enough thank you very much.

I have learned so much over the past 6 months. I've experienced the illusion of several friendships, I dabbled in love,(or lust), and have experienced the fucked up reality of poverty and hunger.

Everything that has happened to me since March has taught me alot. I'm both thankful and sickened at the same time.

I believe that am worthy of a hell of alot more than I have been on the receiving end of. There is a hell of alot more to me than those closest to me seem to acknowledge.

I am an intelligent, fairly good looking, 46 year old single white female who deserves a shot at having my own life. From now on, I am in self preservation mode. I have to be, otherwise, nobody eats. Enough is enough.

Damn, I feel better already.